Its been a long time since i last updated my blog..
Of course, I'm living my new life in JB now
and i even try to adapt myself to this new environment..
I didn't like this place actually
Somehow I got no choice but to accept the fate as its already a fact
moreover it also been too young for me to decide my own life
LOL
What an unfair excuse for me...
haiz whatever that just life....
Hmmmmm a lonely Christmas I've been through today
Something specials actually happened in this Christmas day..
Wow~I act as a heroin and run over three streets to get back the maid..
Never thought I could run a long way and didn't even feels tired..
But it's a really special memory for us..
I miss all my friends in Kedah..
My own hometown that I stayed for 16 years..
Starting 2011, everything will be changed..
That is fate and nothing can change..
Just hope that the time can pass as fast as possible..
So that I can back to Kedah and meet all my beloved friends..
Someone I miss but just pretending forget..
He is still in my mind..
The one who building scar in my heart..
The one who lies to me and make me felt dissapointed to all guys..
But my regards is still by his sides..
The lovely girl who accompany by his sides now..
PLEASE
Take a good care for him..
But I think she will not care him so much..
LOL
That is none of my business right?
Just left it in my mind..
Without any of their shadows....
My life will be full of happiness..
YES
That is my life....
Saturday, December 25, 2010
my life story....
A long period I didn't update for this blog..
Of course I'm during my new life in JB
and I try to adapt myself..
I didn't like this place actually
But I got no choice to decide my life
The reason is I still too young to decide
LOL
What a unfair reason for me...
haiz whatever that just life....
Hmmmmm a lonely christmas I'm during today
Some specials is happening in this christmas day..
Wow~I act as a heroin and run over three streets to get back the maid..
Never thought I can run too long way and didn't feels tired..
But it's a really special memory for us..
I miss all my friends in Kedah..
My own hometown and I already stay there for 16 years..
Start 2011,everything will be change..
That is fate and nothing can change..
Just hope the time can pass as fast as possible..
So that I can back to Kedah and meet all my beloved friends..
Someone I miss but just pretending forget..
He is still in my miknd..
The one who buliding scar in my heart..
The one who lies to me and make me felt dissapointed to all guys..
But my regards is still by his sides..
The lovely girl who accompany by his sides now..
PLEASE
Take a good care for him..
But I think she will not care him sop much..
LOL
That is none of my business right?
Just left it in my mind..
Without any of their shadows....
My life will be full of hapiness..
YES
That is my life....
Of course I'm during my new life in JB
and I try to adapt myself..
I didn't like this place actually
But I got no choice to decide my life
The reason is I still too young to decide
LOL
What a unfair reason for me...
haiz whatever that just life....
Hmmmmm a lonely christmas I'm during today
Some specials is happening in this christmas day..
Wow~I act as a heroin and run over three streets to get back the maid..
Never thought I can run too long way and didn't feels tired..
But it's a really special memory for us..
I miss all my friends in Kedah..
My own hometown and I already stay there for 16 years..
Start 2011,everything will be change..
That is fate and nothing can change..
Just hope the time can pass as fast as possible..
So that I can back to Kedah and meet all my beloved friends..
Someone I miss but just pretending forget..
He is still in my miknd..
The one who buliding scar in my heart..
The one who lies to me and make me felt dissapointed to all guys..
But my regards is still by his sides..
The lovely girl who accompany by his sides now..
PLEASE
Take a good care for him..
But I think she will not care him sop much..
LOL
That is none of my business right?
Just left it in my mind..
Without any of their shadows....
My life will be full of hapiness..
YES
That is my life....
Friday, December 17, 2010
New life in Johor...
Today is the first day I stay in Johor..
Actually this is the first time I visit to this place..
But for now this is the place I will stay for the coming days..
Haiz...actually I'm not really happy with this...
I more prefer Sungai Petani...
Although that is just a small town,
But a lots of sweet memory and friends there..
Hmmmm so sad with it...
I have to suit myself woth this city...
I know I have no choice...
Now I really miss all my friends there...
So all the best to all my friends..
Best regards to u all...
Actually this is the first time I visit to this place..
But for now this is the place I will stay for the coming days..
Haiz...actually I'm not really happy with this...
I more prefer Sungai Petani...
Although that is just a small town,
But a lots of sweet memory and friends there..
Hmmmm so sad with it...
I have to suit myself woth this city...
I know I have no choice...
Now I really miss all my friends there...
So all the best to all my friends..
Best regards to u all...
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Everything is coming to THE END...
Everything is coming to the end now..
I'm forget who he is..
I will finding my way to get my happiness..
Just realize it single is much better than couple..
For those my-ex..
Thank you all because I'm learning something new..
You all was teaching me what is a RELATIONSHIP..
Thanks GOD for giving me a chance to get EXPERIENCE in my life...
Well it's END..
IT'S THE END...
We both were doesn't mind it again..
Because we know we are not suit for each other..
Just give up it and fly away to our own sky..
We can get what the most suit for we both...
My regarding is always by yoursides dear...
My tears has drop for you before..
But that's just before..
NO MORE...
I'm finding that tears can't drops easily to the man who aren't worth!!!
GOD BLESS YOU...
I love you...
It's ever...^^
I'm forget who he is..
I will finding my way to get my happiness..
Just realize it single is much better than couple..
For those my-ex..
Thank you all because I'm learning something new..
You all was teaching me what is a RELATIONSHIP..
Thanks GOD for giving me a chance to get EXPERIENCE in my life...
Well it's END..
IT'S THE END...
We both were doesn't mind it again..
Because we know we are not suit for each other..
Just give up it and fly away to our own sky..
We can get what the most suit for we both...
My regarding is always by yoursides dear...
My tears has drop for you before..
But that's just before..
NO MORE...
I'm finding that tears can't drops easily to the man who aren't worth!!!
GOD BLESS YOU...
I love you...
It's ever...^^
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Curly hair style❤
I'm waiting to have a new hair style...
Just fall in love with curly hair style and get to try it..
Hmmmm not bad^^
I'm still statisfied with it..
I think it really suit me..
But between curly hair or straight hair..
I'm more prefer curly one right now..
Hmmm start to pay attention on my look now..
Just hope I can let him surprise^^
LOL..
Will it look too old and like a aunty?
I'm scared people call me aunty..
So embrassed and I doesn't know how to answer..
LMAO..
Now need to search for the way to become fair..
I want my original skin colour like before when I was in kindergarden..
WOW~so fair..
But now just like a siam..
Hmmm actually I mix up with siam too..
But I'm fair because I'm chinese..
GAMBATEH^^
Work hard for it what I dream of^^
Just fall in love with curly hair style and get to try it..
Hmmmm not bad^^
I'm still statisfied with it..
I think it really suit me..
But between curly hair or straight hair..
I'm more prefer curly one right now..
Hmmm start to pay attention on my look now..
Just hope I can let him surprise^^
LOL..
Will it look too old and like a aunty?
I'm scared people call me aunty..
So embrassed and I doesn't know how to answer..
LMAO..
Now need to search for the way to become fair..
I want my original skin colour like before when I was in kindergarden..
WOW~so fair..
But now just like a siam..
Hmmm actually I mix up with siam too..
But I'm fair because I'm chinese..
GAMBATEH^^
Work hard for it what I dream of^^
Friday, November 26, 2010
1st day^^
I'm starting my diet plan today^^
This is the 1st day I really suffer..
I just had a cup of oat and a bread for today..
WOW~AMAZING..
I can't believe I can do it..
Just have a bit worried about my gastric..
But I hope what I wish to can come true..
I need to change myself completely..
CHRISTINE TAN YEN MEI..
Must believe you can do it..
Prove it in three months..
It couldn't be so hard,right?
Hmmmm yaya
Maybe after three months I can lost 10kg^^
Work hard start from now..
Actually I really can't believe I just eat those for whole day..
Too surprise what..
But that's just a start..
My mum is support me^^
I'm glad about it..
Mummy,wait to have a look at new CHRISTINE..
LOL..
Later I will search for the ways how to become fair..
I'm regret for those past year activities..
My original skin colour was gone..
LMAO..
That time was young..
Just do whatever I'm interesting..
Until now just realize something is going wrong..
Fine...all past tense..
Gonna to find the ways to save myself now^^
GOOD LUCK...^^
This is the 1st day I really suffer..
I just had a cup of oat and a bread for today..
WOW~AMAZING..
I can't believe I can do it..
Just have a bit worried about my gastric..
But I hope what I wish to can come true..
I need to change myself completely..
CHRISTINE TAN YEN MEI..
Must believe you can do it..
Prove it in three months..
It couldn't be so hard,right?
Hmmmm yaya
Maybe after three months I can lost 10kg^^
Work hard start from now..
Actually I really can't believe I just eat those for whole day..
Too surprise what..
But that's just a start..
My mum is support me^^
I'm glad about it..
Mummy,wait to have a look at new CHRISTINE..
LOL..
Later I will search for the ways how to become fair..
I'm regret for those past year activities..
My original skin colour was gone..
LMAO..
That time was young..
Just do whatever I'm interesting..
Until now just realize something is going wrong..
Fine...all past tense..
Gonna to find the ways to save myself now^^
GOOD LUCK...^^
Monday, November 22, 2010
Dissapointed..
Just now I saw u press like on her picture..
Yes is her...Your ex-gf..
But I'm feels dissapointed right now..
It's too bad with the feeling..
Then have u ever care for me?
Have u ever press like to my picture?
I am sad with these all what u have do to hurt me..
I'm asking myself,why should I sad?
Finally I get the answer because I love you..
But have u ever care about it?
Why my love such very cheap in your mind?
Why do u never to appreciate it??
Ok fine..I know whatever I said u will not listen..
And u will just think all what I'm talking is RUBBISH...
Now what I want to know is:"Are we still couple??"
Why u never seem me as your gf?
Actually I can't make myself suffer like this again..
But why I can't choose the way to forget you?
Fine...I had told myself that I got to forget u..
I hope I can do it..
My mum has told me yesterday..
She said u just make me as your toy..
When u bored u will come to myside..
When u were busy or free to do some activity..
I'm the one you will be forgotten..
I'm agree with what she had told me..
It's truth!!
I'm surprise with my mum of her words..
She said:"Are you really willing to let your life full with sadness?"
I'm just look at her..
She said:"Dear,u are not the one who can't find any bf..."
"I'm confident u can get a man who better than him many times.."
My tears drops suddenly..
I know my mum is sad when I'm suffer..
Guy...how can u treat a girl like this??
Moreover..I'm ur GIRLFRIEND!!
It's useless to say any words..
GOD BLESS YOU GUY....
and...my LOVE is still here....
Yes is her...Your ex-gf..
But I'm feels dissapointed right now..
It's too bad with the feeling..
Then have u ever care for me?
Have u ever press like to my picture?
I am sad with these all what u have do to hurt me..
I'm asking myself,why should I sad?
Finally I get the answer because I love you..
But have u ever care about it?
Why my love such very cheap in your mind?
Why do u never to appreciate it??
Ok fine..I know whatever I said u will not listen..
And u will just think all what I'm talking is RUBBISH...
Now what I want to know is:"Are we still couple??"
Why u never seem me as your gf?
Actually I can't make myself suffer like this again..
But why I can't choose the way to forget you?
Fine...I had told myself that I got to forget u..
I hope I can do it..
My mum has told me yesterday..
She said u just make me as your toy..
When u bored u will come to myside..
When u were busy or free to do some activity..
I'm the one you will be forgotten..
I'm agree with what she had told me..
It's truth!!
I'm surprise with my mum of her words..
She said:"Are you really willing to let your life full with sadness?"
I'm just look at her..
She said:"Dear,u are not the one who can't find any bf..."
"I'm confident u can get a man who better than him many times.."
My tears drops suddenly..
I know my mum is sad when I'm suffer..
Guy...how can u treat a girl like this??
Moreover..I'm ur GIRLFRIEND!!
It's useless to say any words..
GOD BLESS YOU GUY....
and...my LOVE is still here....
Saturday, November 20, 2010
I believe I can fly^^
I used to think that I could not go on
And life was nothing but an awful song
But now I know the meaning of true love
I'm leaning on the everlasting arms
If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it
I believe I can fly
I believe I can touch the sky
I think about it every night and day
Spread my wings and fly away
I believe I can soar
I see me running through that open door
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly
See I was on the verge of breaking down
Sometimes silence can seem so loud
There are miracles in life I must achieve
But first I know it starts inside of me, oh
If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it
Hey, cause I believe in me, oh
If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it
Hey, if I just spread my wings
I can fly
I can fly
I can fly, hey
If I just spread my wings
I can fly
Fly-eye-eye
I loev this song very much...it's really meaningful and I hope I can fly too^^
And life was nothing but an awful song
But now I know the meaning of true love
I'm leaning on the everlasting arms
If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it
I believe I can fly
I believe I can touch the sky
I think about it every night and day
Spread my wings and fly away
I believe I can soar
I see me running through that open door
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly
See I was on the verge of breaking down
Sometimes silence can seem so loud
There are miracles in life I must achieve
But first I know it starts inside of me, oh
If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it
Hey, cause I believe in me, oh
If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it
Hey, if I just spread my wings
I can fly
I can fly
I can fly, hey
If I just spread my wings
I can fly
Fly-eye-eye
I loev this song very much...it's really meaningful and I hope I can fly too^^
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
I'M FINE...
What I gonna say tonight is I'M FINE..
hmmmm that's good right^^
I'm learning to find my way..
Take a look for my future..
I'M FINE not only to comfort myself..
But that is truth..
I will be honestly to my own..
I can laugh and laugh although my life is without him now..
I think I will miss him..
Yaya..sure I will..
But that's all..
I must have a limit..
I avoid myself to fall in love with you again..
It can't be happen..
Now I will not believe GUYS in all...
But that doesn't means I am a LESBIAN..
Just lack of confident to all GUYS..
Well..anyway..
I will find it myself..
And I love my single life..
I can do all things freedomly..
I study until sleeping^^
And I won't worry he angry..
Because I ever promise him to study well...
Hmmm...I think I doesn't need to realize it right^^
LOL..
Whatever la...just promise I'm happy here..
If we wait for happy moment,we will wait forever..
But if we start believing that we are happy,
we will be happy forever..
ermm..
Agree with the short text above..
And I'm a happy girl^^
hmmmm that's good right^^
I'm learning to find my way..
Take a look for my future..
I'M FINE not only to comfort myself..
But that is truth..
I will be honestly to my own..
I can laugh and laugh although my life is without him now..
I think I will miss him..
Yaya..sure I will..
But that's all..
I must have a limit..
I avoid myself to fall in love with you again..
It can't be happen..
Now I will not believe GUYS in all...
But that doesn't means I am a LESBIAN..
Just lack of confident to all GUYS..
Well..anyway..
I will find it myself..
And I love my single life..
I can do all things freedomly..
I study until sleeping^^
And I won't worry he angry..
Because I ever promise him to study well...
Hmmm...I think I doesn't need to realize it right^^
LOL..
Whatever la...just promise I'm happy here..
If we wait for happy moment,we will wait forever..
But if we start believing that we are happy,
we will be happy forever..
ermm..
Agree with the short text above..
And I'm a happy girl^^
Monday, November 15, 2010
Single life.. ❤
I will start my single life since tomorow..
I'm wondering how can I during the days without him..
But I hope I can handle myself well...
Nothing will be change just because him~
Life still go on and the sunrise will be more warm heart..
Tomorrow..I will act as the real me..
I doesn't hope to change my style just because of the guy I love..
He was totally change after he went to KL..
Maybe he doesn't realize but I'm the one look clearly through it..
I felt he is walking away and away from me..
Then a far distance between we both now..
Finally we have to walk to our own future..
He is the one who ever to pass through my life but not forever..
I'm clear about how much I love him..
And I clear about our relationship is gone in the same time..
How sad am I?
But he never know he never cares he never!!
I'm really dissapointed of him..
Never think that he is such that type of man..
Cool man..what a rubbish promise for me??
I will never believe to guy AGAIN..just because of him..
I sware to myself..
Don't become others toy again!!
U should choose the toy to play..
He is the one who affect me to become a BAD girl since tomorrow..
Ya ya..just because of him!!
Don't say I'm too silly or anything word to disagree me..
I will not listen to..
My tears is not available to guy since tomorrow..
This is my own promise to myself..
He can't realize what he promise to me but I can do it what I did promise to myself..
I got to REALIZE it..
I am who I am!!
I love him but I can't forgive him..
Maybe after some years we can have a talk but not now..
Ask him how he treat me..
I am his GIRLFRIEND!!
But he just treat me as a friend...or not a friend...
Just a person he never recognize..
How hurt am I!!
Ok fine..I will not find you start from this moment..
You no need to find a lots of reason to lie me anymore..
Why?SUSAH sngt!!
We both stop here..
Six months ...wow~
Hlf of a year alr..
But what did I get finally?
I got wounds..
I know what's the feeling of pain..
I should thank you isn't it?
THANK YOU MY LIFE PASSENGER!!
The guy who hurts me and win my heart finally..
I know I can't give up my love for you..
And you wins my tears^^
Anyway..
GOD BLESS YOU MY BB..
I'm wondering how can I during the days without him..
But I hope I can handle myself well...
Nothing will be change just because him~
Life still go on and the sunrise will be more warm heart..
Tomorrow..I will act as the real me..
I doesn't hope to change my style just because of the guy I love..
He was totally change after he went to KL..
Maybe he doesn't realize but I'm the one look clearly through it..
I felt he is walking away and away from me..
Then a far distance between we both now..
Finally we have to walk to our own future..
He is the one who ever to pass through my life but not forever..
I'm clear about how much I love him..
And I clear about our relationship is gone in the same time..
How sad am I?
But he never know he never cares he never!!
I'm really dissapointed of him..
Never think that he is such that type of man..
Cool man..what a rubbish promise for me??
I will never believe to guy AGAIN..just because of him..
I sware to myself..
Don't become others toy again!!
U should choose the toy to play..
He is the one who affect me to become a BAD girl since tomorrow..
Ya ya..just because of him!!
Don't say I'm too silly or anything word to disagree me..
I will not listen to..
My tears is not available to guy since tomorrow..
This is my own promise to myself..
He can't realize what he promise to me but I can do it what I did promise to myself..
I got to REALIZE it..
I am who I am!!
I love him but I can't forgive him..
Maybe after some years we can have a talk but not now..
Ask him how he treat me..
I am his GIRLFRIEND!!
But he just treat me as a friend...or not a friend...
Just a person he never recognize..
How hurt am I!!
Ok fine..I will not find you start from this moment..
You no need to find a lots of reason to lie me anymore..
Why?SUSAH sngt!!
We both stop here..
Six months ...wow~
Hlf of a year alr..
But what did I get finally?
I got wounds..
I know what's the feeling of pain..
I should thank you isn't it?
THANK YOU MY LIFE PASSENGER!!
The guy who hurts me and win my heart finally..
I know I can't give up my love for you..
And you wins my tears^^
Anyway..
GOD BLESS YOU MY BB..
Saturday, November 13, 2010
White Horse
By the ways,the song lyrics is not suittable to describe me..I'm not the type of girl who will refuse x-bf request to couple again...yaya..I'm the one who understand me clearly..I'm not the one who can forget everything easily..maybe this is my weakness in life..
Errmmm...Tomorrow have a last test with subject SEJARAH...But I don't mind it..wow~so admire with my own style.but I know without a good SPM result..I'm nothing in this country...So what I got to do??Nothing to cheer me up...LOL...
Hope I can handle my test tomorrow...with a blank brain..LOL...good luck CHRISTINE...
Friday, November 12, 2010
Find Back Myself❤
I wanna to find back myself..The original Christine Tan Yen Mei.Sometimes I'm wondering what's wrong with me.Who am I now?I found that I'm not happy this few months.I will laugh as loud as posible in front my best friend and my family.But when I was alone in the midnight,I will let my tears falling down...Am I crazy?I think no..But its really stressful when I facing myself..
Errmmm why my life is such that hard?I have to handle all my problems myself but I have a boyfriend..HAIZ..I just only can share my problems with my beloved sis in school..He never know what I'm thinking about.He never know what's I sad about.Wow~I can't complain anything..but I know somethng was different between us..
November..It's near and near to the date I have to move from this town..Actually I still can't accept it.Besides,nobody can comfort me..Yesterday I take the 'change school' form to let all my subject teachers sign..I'm really upset when I take the paper..I know everything is coming to the last moment..its THE END..no others way can help me to stay here anymore..But what to do?Apart from follow their's opinion,what can I do???
LOL I believe GOD will decide the most suitable life for me...and the challenges^^
Every part,every man and every matter in my life is too memorable for me through the life..GAMBATEH MEI MEI^^
Errmmm why my life is such that hard?I have to handle all my problems myself but I have a boyfriend..HAIZ..I just only can share my problems with my beloved sis in school..He never know what I'm thinking about.He never know what's I sad about.Wow~I can't complain anything..but I know somethng was different between us..
November..It's near and near to the date I have to move from this town..Actually I still can't accept it.Besides,nobody can comfort me..Yesterday I take the 'change school' form to let all my subject teachers sign..I'm really upset when I take the paper..I know everything is coming to the last moment..its THE END..no others way can help me to stay here anymore..But what to do?Apart from follow their's opinion,what can I do???
LOL I believe GOD will decide the most suitable life for me...and the challenges^^
Every part,every man and every matter in my life is too memorable for me through the life..GAMBATEH MEI MEI^^
Sunday, October 24, 2010
I have to force myself to practice my english here..
Tomorrow I have my english test.What did appear in my mind is god please save me.I know I must practice to write something before going to be test.So,I choose to share my mood here.I still remember last time when I got english test,I sms with John through the night.The result is amazing.LOL.But now I didn't have this chance again so better I practice myself.
How about my exams?I'm scare here.I don't know how should I face it.I never revision at all.Now just realize something is going wrong.LOL..I'll sit in front the computer from day to night.I'll accompany my mum to watch the movie together.And I never think about my homework.I found that bio and chemis sllybus is haven't finish yet.LOL.What I got to do?Is not enough time for me anymore.
My literature how to settle it?I juz read for one poem only.Still have short stories and another poem.and one drama I have to settle it.I worried about the essays.How to revision it?LOL..my grammar problems..my vocabulary problems...OMG..Who can save me from here now?
How about my exams?I'm scare here.I don't know how should I face it.I never revision at all.Now just realize something is going wrong.LOL..I'll sit in front the computer from day to night.I'll accompany my mum to watch the movie together.And I never think about my homework.I found that bio and chemis sllybus is haven't finish yet.LOL.What I got to do?Is not enough time for me anymore.
My literature how to settle it?I juz read for one poem only.Still have short stories and another poem.and one drama I have to settle it.I worried about the essays.How to revision it?LOL..my grammar problems..my vocabulary problems...OMG..Who can save me from here now?
Thursday, October 14, 2010
2010.10.14
October 14,is near to the exams which will be held in 25 October.I haven't prepare anything yet and I hope I can get the results with flying colours.LOL..is it possible?I don't think so.Just because I can't even understand what's the syllybus about.This result will be decide what school and class I will be in next year.It's really important to me but I never care about it.Why?I can't be like that continuous.
I play truant again and again.This is my second day play truant.Wow~skipping class is so fun.I know I'm start to loving it and I will did it again.Is ok what,just send a letter to teacher stat that I'm sick so can enjoy at home..LOL..How I can get good result?
Just now went to tuition.The tuition teacher praise me in front the class.All the students stared on me.LOL.I'm not such good as what teacher thinking.At least I understand what she is teaching.The second time they all stared at me is when we are writing an essay.LOL..Because I can't get any ideas so scold some rude word as usual.Nothing surprise what.But ehy they all stared at me like I'm a murder.LOL..please la..Who don't know me?I'm a rude person in fact.
It comes nearer and nearer to December.I'm afraid that I get to move soon.I doesn't want.Until now I'm still doesn't agree that.My aunt ask me wanna stay in Alor Setar or not.She can take care of me.At least no need to go far away.But for me..If both choice is got to move too,why should i choose here?Better I just stay in the original place.LOL.Bored about their opinion.
I play truant again and again.This is my second day play truant.Wow~skipping class is so fun.I know I'm start to loving it and I will did it again.Is ok what,just send a letter to teacher stat that I'm sick so can enjoy at home..LOL..How I can get good result?
Just now went to tuition.The tuition teacher praise me in front the class.All the students stared on me.LOL.I'm not such good as what teacher thinking.At least I understand what she is teaching.The second time they all stared at me is when we are writing an essay.LOL..Because I can't get any ideas so scold some rude word as usual.Nothing surprise what.But ehy they all stared at me like I'm a murder.LOL..please la..Who don't know me?I'm a rude person in fact.
It comes nearer and nearer to December.I'm afraid that I get to move soon.I doesn't want.Until now I'm still doesn't agree that.My aunt ask me wanna stay in Alor Setar or not.She can take care of me.At least no need to go far away.But for me..If both choice is got to move too,why should i choose here?Better I just stay in the original place.LOL.Bored about their opinion.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
2010.10.13
I still haven't done my homework yet.Don't konw when I start to become a lazy girl.I'm sure that my attitude is not such this before.My mum keep complaining me and yet it's useless.So what?I would like to do the things which only I'm interested.Started to hate my own self just because I'm totally change.Shin Hui also said like that.Yup...Christine last time is not here anymore.Who's going to miss her?Nobody isn't?So just let me fly away...I don't care how far the distance could be,just promise I get the happiness.
I plan not to attend to school tomorrow.Another day I play truant.Ermmm I wan changing my opinion just because of my beloved sister.She told me to go school and can't play truant again and again.LOL...She knows I was lazy.So that she promise me if I go to school she will accompany me to watch the movie which I wan excited with..LOL...So glad to hear about this news.However I will go to school and she must realize her promise.I'm too happy with it.But..maybe it was the last movie I enjoy with her.I'm going to leave this town and shift to a new city.It's all I'm not agree but what to do?I just have to follow their opinion in fact.Cool man.My future is in their mind and hand.Who I am?No freedom..No chance to decide..I am who I am..Be a child who always agree with them is enough..
I get to do my homework right now after blogging.There was so much oh my god.Stressful..LOL..This is just lying to myself.Only copy and paste the work,where got stress?By the ways,exams is coming soon.I'm going to die again.Never pay attention in class,never do revision at home..see how I'm going to die.And I found that this result is really important to me.I have to use this result to apply a new school.So?I still nothing to do with this.Just up to GOD to decide my faith.Is good and no worried.
Homework are looking to me right now..
Stop here tonight..
Sweet dreams to somebody^^
I plan not to attend to school tomorrow.Another day I play truant.Ermmm I wan changing my opinion just because of my beloved sister.She told me to go school and can't play truant again and again.LOL...She knows I was lazy.So that she promise me if I go to school she will accompany me to watch the movie which I wan excited with..LOL...So glad to hear about this news.However I will go to school and she must realize her promise.I'm too happy with it.But..maybe it was the last movie I enjoy with her.I'm going to leave this town and shift to a new city.It's all I'm not agree but what to do?I just have to follow their opinion in fact.Cool man.My future is in their mind and hand.Who I am?No freedom..No chance to decide..I am who I am..Be a child who always agree with them is enough..
I get to do my homework right now after blogging.There was so much oh my god.Stressful..LOL..This is just lying to myself.Only copy and paste the work,where got stress?By the ways,exams is coming soon.I'm going to die again.Never pay attention in class,never do revision at home..see how I'm going to die.And I found that this result is really important to me.I have to use this result to apply a new school.So?I still nothing to do with this.Just up to GOD to decide my faith.Is good and no worried.
Homework are looking to me right now..
Stop here tonight..
Sweet dreams to somebody^^
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
I'm going to play truant^^
Wow~I'm going to play truant tomorrow...I never try it before..Just because I'm a good student as their opinion so I'm the one who always follow parents and teachers ideas...First time i do such that attitude..so excited so great..and i should try to lost myself again and again...it's a way to release my stress...I felt depress..And I totally don't like this feeling..cry and cry and cry...useless for me anymore....life is such like that...painful every steps.....
Monday, October 11, 2010
I'm juz an ordinary girl..
I'm just an ordinary girl,who hoping some luck to come over me.I know that relationship is not really benefit me but i try a lot before.It's a time to be regret.I should become a good student and yet I'm wasting my time to play and play and play.No one know that what's inside my mind,even myself.Only her will understand me.God is asking back everything of mine.I don't know why.But that is the fact I have to face right?I try to become more patient to handle all this and yet it is not exactly what same with my mind.
Just now got a guy were ask my handphone number.I refuse to give him.I was hurt and doesn't believe anyone since today.I hope to slap him but it's imposible.I'm scared I got him to slap back.So just left it.I don't care how handsome he is..I don't care how rich he is..I don't care how kind he is..I don't care what he interested of me..just let it go..I'm scaring hurt again.It's is a sadness with painful feel.I'm just an ordinary girl who are not afford to handle all...
What a bad day.I'm sick and can even said a word.My mum is worried about me so that she sent me to see the doctor.Just as usual,the doctor will ask what's wrong with you.Then he is trying to check and give some medicine.Too bored.It's getting worst since yesterday I was not sleeping.Wow~amazing..I love to sleep and yet yesterday 1st time I didn't sleep..
Life is such like that...Everything i should follow what has been set up...no choice...
Just now got a guy were ask my handphone number.I refuse to give him.I was hurt and doesn't believe anyone since today.I hope to slap him but it's imposible.I'm scared I got him to slap back.So just left it.I don't care how handsome he is..I don't care how rich he is..I don't care how kind he is..I don't care what he interested of me..just let it go..I'm scaring hurt again.It's is a sadness with painful feel.I'm just an ordinary girl who are not afford to handle all...
What a bad day.I'm sick and can even said a word.My mum is worried about me so that she sent me to see the doctor.Just as usual,the doctor will ask what's wrong with you.Then he is trying to check and give some medicine.Too bored.It's getting worst since yesterday I was not sleeping.Wow~amazing..I love to sleep and yet yesterday 1st time I didn't sleep..
Life is such like that...Everything i should follow what has been set up...no choice...
Sunday, October 10, 2010
jiwa ku....hati ku...
aku berasa amat sedih ketika waktu ni
tiada sesiapa yg memahami ati ku yg sunyi dan dilukai
sape yg mengakibatkan segala2 ni
sape yg membuat ku x blh mimpi
kecewa tu sakit ati
perasaan tu ku akan mengingatkan selama-lama
x tdok spanjang malam ni
x pnah rasa letih pun
mungkin sebab tu la yg ganggu
ku nk sunpah x lgi percaya laki
diapa penipu atas percintaan
kebanykan janji x dilakui
laki oh laki
aku dok sini menanti
sape yg bukan sekaum hangpa ni
cinta ku bkn di atas kertas
cinta ku gentaran yg sama
x ingin berkali
x ingin berganti
jiwa ku sering saja berkata
andai ku bisa merubah semua
hingga tiada org terluka
xpi x mungkin
ku x berdaya
hanya yakin menunggu
jawapan
sakit jiwa ku mlm ni
tiada sesiapa yg menemani
ku takut sunyi
xpi kena menghadapi
itu la perasaan yg melukai
cinta itu buta
Sunday, October 3, 2010
mad
a long period didnt post in this blog
i'm not confident to my english
that's why i not often post here
today i really really mad
totally no mood omg
what's going on
why should i
there is not i place i wish to go
maybe u all bring me to penang is beter
at least it is the place i like the most
i don't think i will happy if i go
i will lost myself there
sure
i will
i'm going to become a crazy right now
stressful
unhappy
mad mad mad~
all my achieve here is gone
i knw all is gone
nothing is left for me
nothing i can bring there
is that anything can be my memory?
is there anything can accompany me when i am lonely?
doraemon?
where is doraemon?
i love it
i think i will buy a doraemon here before i leave
it can let me hug n gt a sweet dream..
haiz
try to accept what's the faith
i'm not confident to my english
that's why i not often post here
today i really really mad
totally no mood omg
what's going on
why should i
there is not i place i wish to go
maybe u all bring me to penang is beter
at least it is the place i like the most
i don't think i will happy if i go
i will lost myself there
sure
i will
i'm going to become a crazy right now
stressful
unhappy
mad mad mad~
all my achieve here is gone
i knw all is gone
nothing is left for me
nothing i can bring there
is that anything can be my memory?
is there anything can accompany me when i am lonely?
doraemon?
where is doraemon?
i love it
i think i will buy a doraemon here before i leave
it can let me hug n gt a sweet dream..
haiz
try to accept what's the faith
Thursday, September 23, 2010
2nd day
Breakfast : BC or Tea,1 boiled egg,1 toast n 1/2 banana
Lunch: BC or tea,1 cup of plain yogurt or 2 slices of cheese,5 pcs of Ritz biscuit or 2 plain soda biscuit
Dinner:BC or tea,2 hotdog,1 cup of brocoli,1/2 cup of beet roots or carrot,1/2 banana,1/2 cup of regular vanilla ice cream
...3rd day
Breakfast : BC or tea,5 pcs of Ritz biscuit or 2 plain soda biscuit,1 slice cheese,1 medium apple
lunch: BC or tea,1 boiled egg n 1 toast
dinner:BC or tea,1 cup of tuna in water,1 cup of beet roots or carrot,1 cup of cauliflower,1 cup of honey dew,1/2 cup of regular vanilla ice cream
Breakfast : BC or Tea,1 boiled egg,1 toast n 1/2 banana
Lunch: BC or tea,1 cup of plain yogurt or 2 slices of cheese,5 pcs of Ritz biscuit or 2 plain soda biscuit
Dinner:BC or tea,2 hotdog,1 cup of brocoli,1/2 cup of beet roots or carrot,1/2 banana,1/2 cup of regular vanilla ice cream
...3rd day
Breakfast : BC or tea,5 pcs of Ritz biscuit or 2 plain soda biscuit,1 slice cheese,1 medium apple
lunch: BC or tea,1 boiled egg n 1 toast
dinner:BC or tea,1 cup of tuna in water,1 cup of beet roots or carrot,1 cup of cauliflower,1 cup of honey dew,1/2 cup of regular vanilla ice cream
3 days Metabolic Meal Plan
3 days Metabolic Meal Plan
1st day
Breakfast : black coffee or tea (no sugar),
1/2 grapefruit
...1 slice of bread + 2 teaspoon peanut butter
Lunch:
BC or Tea,
1/2 cup tuna in water n 1 slice of bread
Dinner:
BC or Tea,
3Oz of any lean meat or 2 hotdog (steam),
1 cup of green beans,
1 cup of beet roots or carrot,
1 medium apple,
1 regular vanilla ice cream
continue...
1st day
Breakfast : black coffee or tea (no sugar),
1/2 grapefruit
...1 slice of bread + 2 teaspoon peanut butter
Lunch:
BC or Tea,
1/2 cup tuna in water n 1 slice of bread
Dinner:
BC or Tea,
3Oz of any lean meat or 2 hotdog (steam),
1 cup of green beans,
1 cup of beet roots or carrot,
1 medium apple,
1 regular vanilla ice cream
continue...
Sunday, September 12, 2010
My holiday==''
Now I just realize that the first week of my holiday is gone.Oh my god.What I had done?Everyday online,sms,watching tv program and etc..I'm wasting my time.How to forgive myself?A lot of work say hallo to me.I'm going to faint.
Today didn't have chemistry tuition.Nobody inform me.Until I arrived the tuition centre then I just realize it.Wow~Is it I'm poor until no friend to inform me no tuition?Haiz...dissapointed...
Today didn't have chemistry tuition.Nobody inform me.Until I arrived the tuition centre then I just realize it.Wow~Is it I'm poor until no friend to inform me no tuition?Haiz...dissapointed...
Friday, September 10, 2010
I love Justin Bieber..
I love Justin Bieber^^
Just because of his talent..
And he is Damn handsome..
wakaka..
wow~
I found that he is grew in single family..
His mother work a series of low-paying office jobs..
Pattie Mallette was pregnant when she is only 18 years old..
Although Mallette raised Justin Bieber as a single mother and yet Bieber still keep contact with his father..
He is really a good singer for me..
But I heard a lot of your negative news..
Such as they said Justin Bieber is a gay..
Is it true?
But I found Justin Bieber got a ex-girlfriend who name Caitlin Beadles..
She is pretty to me..
I copy a lot of their picture too..
That is amazing..wakaka..
I support you Justin Bieber..
Just because of his talent..
And he is Damn handsome..
wakaka..
wow~
I found that he is grew in single family..
His mother work a series of low-paying office jobs..
Pattie Mallette was pregnant when she is only 18 years old..
Although Mallette raised Justin Bieber as a single mother and yet Bieber still keep contact with his father..
He is really a good singer for me..
But I heard a lot of your negative news..
Such as they said Justin Bieber is a gay..
Is it true?
But I found Justin Bieber got a ex-girlfriend who name Caitlin Beadles..
She is pretty to me..
I copy a lot of their picture too..
That is amazing..wakaka..
I support you Justin Bieber..
wow~my idol^^
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
I want to be myself..
I want to be myself...
I need someone take care of me..
I love to drink carrot milk..
I need him to protect my life..
I need her to share my happiness and sadness...
I need my mum to comfort me when I am sad...
I need my dad to support when I am losing some match...
I love to travel around..
I want to become a genuis..
I hope to more slim and pretty..
I like to sing and dance..
That's almost what is in my mind to describe me..
That is what I like and something need to realize..
by Christine
I need someone take care of me..
I love to drink carrot milk..
I need him to protect my life..
I need her to share my happiness and sadness...
I need my mum to comfort me when I am sad...
I need my dad to support when I am losing some match...
I love to travel around..
I want to become a genuis..
I hope to more slim and pretty..
I like to sing and dance..
That's almost what is in my mind to describe me..
That is what I like and something need to realize..
by Christine
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