Curly hair style❤

I'm waiting to have a new hair style...
Just fall in love with curly hair style and get to try it..
Hmmmm not bad^^
I'm still statisfied with it..
I think it really suit me..
But between curly hair or straight hair..
I'm more prefer curly one right now..
Hmmm start to pay attention on my look now..
Just hope I can let him surprise^^
LOL..
Will it look too old and like a aunty?
I'm scared people call me aunty..
So embrassed and I doesn't know how to answer..
LMAO..
Now need to search for the way to become fair..
I want my original skin colour like before when I was in kindergarden..
WOW~so fair..
But now just like a siam..
Hmmm actually I mix up with siam too..
But I'm fair because I'm chinese..
GAMBATEH^^
Work hard for it what I dream of^^

1st day^^

I'm starting my diet plan today^^
This is the 1st day I really suffer..
I just had a cup of oat and a bread for today..
WOW~AMAZING..
I can't believe I can do it..
Just have a bit worried about my gastric..
But I hope what I wish to can come true..
I need to change myself completely..
CHRISTINE TAN YEN MEI..
Must believe you can do it..
Prove it in three months..
It couldn't be so hard,right?
Hmmmm yaya
Maybe after three months I can lost 10kg^^
Work hard start from now..


Actually I really can't believe I just eat those for whole day..
Too surprise what..
But that's just a start..
My mum is support me^^
I'm glad about it..
Mummy,wait to have a look at new CHRISTINE..
LOL..


Later I will search for the ways how to become fair..
I'm regret for those past year activities..
My original skin colour was gone..
LMAO..
That time was young..
Just do whatever I'm interesting..
Until now just realize something is going wrong..
Fine...all past tense..
Gonna to find the ways to save myself now^^

GOOD LUCK...^^

Dissapointed..

Just now I saw u press like on her picture..
Yes is her...Your ex-gf..
But I'm feels dissapointed right now..
It's too bad with the feeling..
Then have u ever care for me?
Have u ever press like to my picture?
I am sad with these all what u have do to hurt me..
I'm asking myself,why should I sad?
Finally I get the answer because I love you..
But have u ever care about it?
Why my love such very cheap in your mind?
Why do u never to appreciate it??
Ok fine..I know whatever I said u will not listen..
And u will just think all what I'm talking is RUBBISH...
Now what I want to know is:"Are we still couple??"
Why u never seem me as your gf?
Actually I can't make myself suffer like this again..
But why I can't choose the way to forget you?
Fine...I had told myself that I got to forget u..
I hope I can do it..
My mum has told me yesterday..
She said u just make me as your toy..
When u bored u will come to myside..
When u were busy or free to do some activity..
I'm the one you will be forgotten..
I'm agree with what she had told me..
It's truth!!
I'm surprise with my mum of her words..
She said:"Are you really willing to let your life full with sadness?"
I'm just look at her..
She said:"Dear,u are not the one who can't find any bf..."
"I'm confident u can get a man who better than him many times.."
My tears drops suddenly..
I know my mum is sad when I'm suffer..
Guy...how can u treat a girl like this??
Moreover..I'm ur GIRLFRIEND!!
It's useless to say any words..
GOD BLESS YOU GUY....
and...my LOVE is still here....

I believe I can fly^^

I used to think that I could not go on
And life was nothing but an awful song
But now I know the meaning of true love
I'm leaning on the everlasting arms

If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it


I believe I can fly
I believe I can touch the sky
I think about it every night and day
Spread my wings and fly away
I believe I can soar
I see me running through that open door
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly

See I was on the verge of breaking down
Sometimes silence can seem so loud
There are miracles in life I must achieve
But first I know it starts inside of me, oh

If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it


Hey, cause I believe in me, oh

If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it


Hey, if I just spread my wings
I can fly
I can fly
I can fly, hey
If I just spread my wings
I can fly
Fly-eye-eye






I loev this song very much...it's really meaningful and I hope I can fly too^^

I'M FINE...

What I gonna say tonight is I'M FINE..
hmmmm that's good right^^
I'm learning to find my way..
Take a look for my future..
I'M FINE not only to comfort myself..
But that is truth..
I will be honestly to my own..
I can laugh and laugh although my life is without him now..
I think I will miss him..
Yaya..sure I will..
But that's all..
I must have a limit..
I avoid myself to fall in love with you again..
It can't be happen..
Now I will not believe GUYS in all...
But that doesn't means I am a LESBIAN..
Just lack of confident to all GUYS..
Well..anyway..
I will find it myself..
And I love my single life..
I can do all things freedomly..
I study until sleeping^^
And I won't worry he angry..
Because I ever promise him to study well...
Hmmm...I think I doesn't need to realize it right^^
LOL..
Whatever la...just promise I'm happy here..

If we wait for happy moment,we will wait forever..
But if we start believing that we are happy,
we will be happy forever..

ermm..
Agree with the short text above..
And I'm a happy girl^^

Single life.. ❤

I will start my single life since tomorow..
I'm wondering how can I during the days without him..
But I hope I can handle myself well...
Nothing will be change just because him~
Life still go on and the sunrise will be more warm heart..
Tomorrow..I will act as the real me..
I doesn't hope to change my style just because of the guy I love..

He was totally change after he went to KL..
Maybe he doesn't realize but I'm the one look clearly through it..
I felt he is walking away and away from me..
Then a far distance between we both now..
Finally we have to walk to our own future..
He is the one who ever to pass through my life but not forever..
I'm clear about how much I love him..
And I clear about our relationship is gone in the same time..
How sad am I?
But he never know he never cares he never!!
I'm really dissapointed of him..
Never think that he is such that type of man..
Cool man..what a rubbish promise for me??
I will never believe to guy AGAIN..just because of him..
I sware to myself..
Don't become others toy again!!
U should choose the toy to play..

He is the one who affect me to become a BAD girl since tomorrow..
Ya ya..just because of him!!
Don't say I'm too silly or anything word to disagree me..
I will not listen to..
My tears is not available to guy since tomorrow..
This is my own promise to myself..
He can't realize what he promise to me but I can do it what I did promise to myself..
I got to REALIZE it..

I am who I am!!
I love him but I can't forgive him..
Maybe after some years we can have a talk but not now..
Ask him how he treat me..
I am his GIRLFRIEND!!
But he just treat me as a friend...or not a friend...
Just a person he never recognize..
How hurt am I!!
Ok fine..I will not find you start from this moment..
You no need to find a lots of reason to lie me anymore..
Why?SUSAH sngt!!

We both stop here..
Six months ...wow~
Hlf of a year alr..
But what did I get finally?
I got wounds..
I know what's the feeling of pain..
I should thank you isn't it?
THANK YOU MY LIFE PASSENGER!!
The guy who hurts me and win my heart finally..
I know I can't give up my love for you..
And you wins my tears^^

Anyway..
GOD BLESS YOU MY BB..

White Horse

 I falling in love with Taylor Swift'song "white horse"..what a nice song..really soft and the lyrics actually suit my novel story..I would like to add this song into my novel..Hope my reader will like it..

  By the ways,the song lyrics is not suittable to describe me..I'm not the type of girl who will refuse x-bf request to couple again...yaya..I'm the one who understand me clearly..I'm not the one who can forget everything easily..maybe this is my weakness in life..

  Errmmm...Tomorrow have a last test with subject SEJARAH...But I don't mind it..wow~so admire with my own style.but I know without a good SPM result..I'm nothing in this country...So what I got to do??Nothing to cheer me up...LOL...

  Hope I can handle my test tomorrow...with a blank brain..LOL...good luck CHRISTINE...

Find Back Myself❤

  I wanna to find back myself..The original Christine Tan Yen Mei.Sometimes I'm wondering what's wrong with me.Who am I now?I found that I'm not happy this few months.I will laugh as loud as posible in front my best friend and my family.But when I was alone in the midnight,I will let my tears falling down...Am I crazy?I think no..But its really stressful when I facing myself..

  Errmmm why my life is such that hard?I have to handle all my problems myself but I have a boyfriend..HAIZ..I just only can share my problems with my beloved sis in school..He never know what I'm thinking about.He never know what's I sad about.Wow~I can't complain anything..but I know somethng was different between us..

  November..It's near and near to the date I have to move from this town..Actually I still can't accept it.Besides,nobody can comfort me..Yesterday I take the 'change school' form to let all my subject teachers sign..I'm really upset when I take the paper..I know everything is coming to the last moment..its THE END..no others way can help me to stay here anymore..But what to do?Apart from follow their's opinion,what can I do???

  LOL I believe GOD will decide the most suitable life for me...and the challenges^^

  Every part,every man and every matter in my life is too memorable for me through the life..GAMBATEH MEI MEI^^