I have to force myself to practice my english here..

  Tomorrow I have my english test.What did appear in my mind is god please save me.I know I must practice to write something before going to be test.So,I choose to share my mood here.I still remember last time when I got english test,I sms with John through the night.The result is amazing.LOL.But now I didn't have this chance again so better I practice myself.
 
  How about my exams?I'm scare here.I don't know how should I face it.I never revision at all.Now just realize something is going wrong.LOL..I'll sit in front the computer from day to night.I'll accompany my mum to watch the movie together.And I never think about my homework.I found that bio and chemis sllybus is haven't finish yet.LOL.What I got to do?Is not enough time for me anymore.

  My literature how to settle it?I juz read for one poem only.Still have short stories and another poem.and one drama I have to settle it.I worried about the essays.How to revision it?LOL..my grammar problems..my vocabulary problems...OMG..Who can save me from here now?

 

2010.10.14

  October 14,is near to the exams which will be held in 25 October.I haven't prepare anything yet and I hope I can get the results with flying colours.LOL..is it possible?I don't think so.Just because I can't even understand what's the syllybus about.This result will be decide what school and class I will be in next year.It's really important to me but I never care about it.Why?I can't be like that continuous.
 
  I play truant again and again.This is my second day play truant.Wow~skipping class is so fun.I know I'm start to loving it and I will did it again.Is ok what,just send a letter to teacher stat that I'm sick so can enjoy at home..LOL..How I can get good result?

  Just now went to tuition.The tuition teacher praise me in front the class.All the students stared on me.LOL.I'm not such good as what teacher thinking.At least I understand what she is teaching.The second time they all stared at me is when we are writing an essay.LOL..Because I can't get any ideas so scold some rude word as usual.Nothing surprise what.But ehy they all stared at me like I'm a murder.LOL..please la..Who don't know me?I'm a rude person in fact.

  It comes nearer and nearer to December.I'm afraid that I get to move soon.I doesn't want.Until now I'm still doesn't agree that.My aunt ask me wanna stay in Alor Setar or not.She can take care of me.At least no need to go far away.But for me..If both choice is got to move too,why should i choose here?Better I just stay in the original place.LOL.Bored about their opinion.

2010.10.13

  I still haven't done my homework yet.Don't konw when I start to become a lazy girl.I'm sure that my attitude is not such this before.My mum keep complaining me and yet it's useless.So what?I would like to do the things which only I'm interested.Started to hate my own self just because I'm totally change.Shin Hui also said like that.Yup...Christine last time is not here anymore.Who's going to miss her?Nobody isn't?So just let me fly away...I don't care how far the distance could be,just promise I get the happiness.
 
  I plan not to attend to school tomorrow.Another day I play truant.Ermmm I wan changing my opinion just because of my beloved sister.She told me to go school and can't play truant again and again.LOL...She knows I was lazy.So that she promise me if I go to school she will accompany me to watch the movie which I wan excited with..LOL...So glad to hear about this news.However I will go to school and she must realize her promise.I'm too happy with it.But..maybe it was the last movie I enjoy with her.I'm going to leave this town and shift to a new city.It's all I'm not agree but what to do?I just have to follow their opinion in fact.Cool man.My future is in their mind and hand.Who I am?No freedom..No chance to decide..I am who I am..Be a child who always agree with them is enough..
 
  I get to do my homework right now after blogging.There was so much oh my god.Stressful..LOL..This is just lying to myself.Only copy and paste the work,where got stress?By the ways,exams is coming soon.I'm going to die again.Never pay attention in class,never do revision at home..see how I'm going to die.And I found that this result is really important to me.I have to use this result to apply a new school.So?I still nothing to do with this.Just up to GOD to decide my faith.Is good and no worried.

Homework are looking to me right now..
Stop here tonight..
Sweet dreams to somebody^^

I'm going to play truant^^

  Wow~I'm going to play truant tomorrow...I never try it before..Just because I'm a good student as their opinion so I'm the one who always follow parents and teachers ideas...First time i do such that attitude..so excited so great..and i should try to lost myself again and again...it's a way to release my stress...I felt depress..And I totally don't like this feeling..cry and cry and cry...useless for me anymore....life is such like that...painful every steps.....

I'm juz an ordinary girl..

  I'm just an ordinary girl,who hoping some luck to come over me.I know that relationship is not really benefit me but i try a lot before.It's a time to be regret.I should become a good student and yet I'm wasting my time to play and play and play.No one know that what's inside my mind,even myself.Only her will understand me.God is asking back everything of mine.I don't know why.But that is the fact I have to face right?I try to become more patient to handle all this and yet it is not exactly what same with my mind.

  Just now got a guy were ask my handphone number.I refuse to give him.I was hurt and doesn't believe anyone since today.I hope to slap him but it's imposible.I'm scared I got him to slap back.So just left it.I don't care how handsome he is..I don't care how rich he is..I don't care how kind he is..I don't care what he interested of me..just let it go..I'm scaring hurt again.It's is a sadness with painful feel.I'm just an ordinary girl who are not afford to handle all...

  What a bad day.I'm sick and can even said a word.My mum is worried about me so that she sent me to see the doctor.Just as usual,the doctor will ask what's wrong with you.Then he is trying to check and give some medicine.Too bored.It's getting worst since yesterday I was not sleeping.Wow~amazing..I love to sleep and yet yesterday 1st time I didn't sleep..

  Life is such like that...Everything i should follow what has been set up...no choice...

jiwa ku....hati ku...

aku berasa amat sedih ketika waktu ni

tiada sesiapa yg memahami ati ku yg sunyi dan dilukai

sape yg mengakibatkan segala2 ni

sape yg membuat ku x blh mimpi

kecewa tu sakit ati

perasaan tu ku akan mengingatkan selama-lama

x tdok spanjang malam ni

x pnah rasa letih pun

mungkin sebab tu la yg ganggu

ku nk sunpah x lgi percaya laki

diapa penipu atas percintaan

kebanykan janji x dilakui

laki oh laki

aku dok sini menanti

sape yg bukan sekaum hangpa ni

cinta ku bkn di atas kertas

cinta ku gentaran yg sama

x ingin berkali

x ingin berganti

jiwa ku sering saja berkata

andai ku bisa merubah semua

hingga tiada org terluka

xpi x mungkin

ku x berdaya

hanya yakin menunggu

jawapan

sakit jiwa ku mlm ni

tiada sesiapa yg menemani

ku takut sunyi

xpi kena menghadapi

itu la perasaan yg melukai

cinta itu buta

mad

a long period didnt post in this blog
i'm not confident to my english
that's why i not often post here
today i really really mad
totally no mood omg
what's going on
why should i
there is not i place i wish to go
maybe u all bring me to penang is beter
at least it is the place i like the most
i don't think i will happy if i go
i will lost myself there
sure
i will

i'm going to become a crazy right now
stressful
unhappy
mad mad mad~
all my achieve here is gone
i knw all is gone
nothing is left for me
nothing i can bring there
is that anything can be my memory?
is there anything can accompany me when i am lonely?
doraemon?
where is doraemon?
i love it
i think i will buy a doraemon here before i leave
it can let me hug n gt a sweet dream..

haiz
try to accept what's the faith